May 22, 2011
To the love of my life,
Wow, it’s been a long time since I’ve written to you. Where to begin…hmm well I miss you. I miss talking to you, and texting you, and joking with you. I miss having my crazy friends try to put us together and we end up together anyway. I miss making plans that our parents don’t know about and then getting our friends in on it. I miss inviting you to random outings and having to help you come up with some excuse to tell your parents. But mostly, I just miss you. I wish I could tell you that I still like you after all this time. I wish I could text you like nothing was wrong and we could pick up where we left off. But I can’t, I had an opportunity and I blew it, and trying to patch things up now would just be too difficult. I’m hoping to see you more this summer, but I doubt that’s gonna happen. I have entirely too much to pack into this summer and I don’t know if I’m gonna have time for…oh who am I kidding, I’m gonna have all the time in the world, I just don’t wanna make everything worse than it already is. Yeah it’s confusing, and I don’t think either one of us knows what happened. I’m just tired of always being first. Tired of being the first one to text, tired of being the first one to call, tired of being the first one to make plans. I just want you to make the first move for once. Is that too much to ask? I’m officially confused on what the heck I’m feeling nowadays. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
